Babo

“Baby, please take my shoes for me...”

“Baby, please refill the water bottle...”

“Baby, please take my phone...”

He would never complain (well, maybe sometimes) but he did it anyways. He's the one you can always count on to help with the chores around the house. I guess that's what makes him so independent and mature.

I miss my baby brother. So big so tall and yet he’s actually still so small.

Whenever I have insecurities, I would simply talk to him. He maybe small but he’s a great listener. I’m sure he’s gonna become a great man when he's old enough. A gentleman. He did say once to me, “Hafiz nak girlfriend macam Kakak” my heart melted. It was the sweetest thing ever and it was so sincere. I miss him dancing, and fighting by his own at the corner of the room. And I would just stare and thinking what Is he doing. Slowly, I would take out my phone and record him. "Kakak nii, jangan laa..." he would say, hiding his red face and I would just laugh.

When it's Moma or Dado's birthday, he would come to me and say, "Kakak, let's do something for Moma and Dado." He presents all his ideas - what to do, when to do, what to get, etc etc etc. And of course, I was the sponsor of his marvellous plan. And of course, I did not mind this. As long as he is happy, I would do anything for my baby brother.

"Kakak tidur laa dengan Hafiz" he said, standing by my bed while I was watching my movie. I stared at him blankly. Then I gave him 'the look'. Immediately, he took my blanket and pillow and laptop, to his room. I don’t really know why he wanted me with him. Cause when I go to his room, he just lay next to me, and he would be sleeping in seconds. No spending time together or talking or whatever of that sort. I guess (or maybe I hope) my presence there makes him safe and comfy. If it’s true, I’m happy. I love my baby brother.

The day he was sent to boarding school, I was very sad I couldn’t send him. I did not think that I would cry as I will be seeing him every weekend - either I go to him or he comes home. I hugged him for the last time, sent him to the car and waved goodbye as the car left. When I finally locked the door. I ran onto his bed crying. I played videos of him again and again until I fell asleep.

Kakak miss you Aiman Hafiz.